Survivor
Mostly I remember the desperation
In flashes that came back through the decades
Searching for distraction or to change his mind
Tears on my pillow, blood soiled cotton flowers
The exasperated confusion of a trusting child
In those moments I was inhuman, disassociated
Separated from my tiny body, watching from afar
I was his toy, a thing undeserving of empathy
For years left unscrambling concepts of lust and love
Triggers like a plague; I became an enemy to myself
He tried to break me, poison mind and spirit
But insurmountable anger is replaced with pity
His monstrous regime now dissolved and powerless
For I rose like a phoenix despite the ashes all around
See what we’re up against folks?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY B!
Like a whirlwind he comes and goes
Piercing eyes, bull hooped nose
Kind and patient with stories to tell
Mutually coping through personal hells
A deeper connection than you’d find with most
He echoes the past like a friendly ghost
Tugs the heartstrings with music and prose
Laughter or pain, whatever life throws
Pushes the boundaries of space and time
Though I worry, I know he’ll be fine
Forever reserved a place in my heart
A friendship that flourished right from the start
I am a villain disguised as a hero.
Rhyme and Reason
This may sound a bit bold
But I’ve had to shiver in the cold
I tried to do as I was told
While watching the sickness unfold
They never showed any regret
My countless scars surmount their debt
Terrors too dark to soon forget
With basic needs always unmet
Now my trust is razor thin
Tears pent up behind a grin
Every move declared a sin
For a battle we’ll never win
Cast away to fend alone
Forge a path and find a home
Better off than love on loan
Chaos is all I’ve ever known
Do it, you know you wanna…
Now HERE is some wrestling I could watch…
Kind of beautiful in a way…
